I remember..

when i would get so panicked that i would always be alone, that i would never find love. And then i fell in love, with someone who i thought was amazing. I thought he loved me too, and i would literally have these days where i was like “DAMN. i have someone, and he loves me. when did that happen?!” it took me six months. six months to realize all of that was wrong. I have no idea how you really felt about me, all you did was lie.. To think i thought i was happy all that time.. It kinda sickens me. And now, now im back to the moments when i have panic attacks, because i feel like i’ll never find anyone. And now its even worse, because i feel like i wont be able to replace what i had with him.. or find someone better. There might be guys out there who like me, or will love me, but what if i can’t return that? and vice versa, what if who i love wont love me? i back to these break downs. I would almost rather have these delusions where i think im lucky..

Everything is better if not back to normal <3

I was vacuuming your car, i looked up for one minute, you were across the shop winding up cords for drills or something, watching ,me, you made a really silly face at me, so i made one back and continued to clean. Next thing i know, you’re right next to me, and we’re making out… Solid :D But it was a moment like that, the looks you gave me, that i knew you appreciate me, and know how much i do for you, and that means more than you think. 

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STOP.

You’re not going to do this. I wont let it happen. You’re not going to push me away. I wont let you. Im here for you whether or not you take advantage of that. Just because things aren’t going right at home, doesn’t mean they can’t go right with me. Let me be one of the good things in your life. 

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Horrible night at work.

If it were summer i’d race off to your house, not caring that its 10:30 on a Tuesday night, i’d get out of the car, youd wrap your arms around me and pull me in, and i’d lose it. What i had been holding in my entire shift, i would lose it in tears. 

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All summer my mom and i have been looking for a cute pair of cowboy boots that arent too expensive, but i feel like if i buy a pair my friends with give me sass

They’re suburb girls who dream about the city. They dont get my redneck roots. lol

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Can’t believe you want to throw us away. Took me 6 months to get close to you, a month for us to get serious, last monday was our three month. Ten months we’ve spent on eachother, and you want to throw it away. Unfucking believable. 

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I miss you..

I typed this whole page of what to say. i just upset myself and deleted it. 

i miss you.

I dont think you understand. 

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Honestly..

My boyfriend is so just.. sexy and hot. Why is he even with me. Im such a potato. 

Today we were at the race track, his little cousins were being picked on by some boys so he went behind the bleachers in the field to yell at them. As he was walking back, in his dirty racing pants and a white t-shirt, the sun gleaming around him, he looked so angelic and sexy. I don’t even think those go together, but he made it possible. I cant even deal. Hes just so perfect.

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The fact that I’m wearing Jeggings that i haven’t been able to wear in two years cuz they were too tight, is amazing.

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My boss is so nice, he shared his pizza with me today! :D

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Im not gonna lie.

I absolutely love it when people tell me that me and my boyfriend make a good couple

I love it when people say we’re adorable how i hold on to his arm when we walk.

I love it when people say that we look so happy and cute together.

I love how we are a good couple.

I love how we are adorable, and how i feel secure when i hold on to him.

I love how we are happy and cute together. 

But i love him most of all. 

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I always get my hair semi-cute for work, then i get there and they immediately put me in the Chuck E Cheese mouse costume and boom, its shit the rest of the night.

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I’m probably the best girlfriend out there, not gonna lie.

Helped my boyfriend look for jobs, offered to write him a cover letter and personal resume.

Bought him a Caramel Frozen Hot Chocolate.

AND let him use my brother as a punching bag. :D 

Now that’s love. ♥

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i love seeing happy couples because it’s like I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!!!! I’M SO HAPPY FOR YOUR HAPPINESS

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